I'm a portuguese teen girl, who started to develop a really bad disease in the age of sixteen. I guess you all know what I'm talking about: BULIMIA.

   I've always been a fat kid, because of my love for food, and most of all, because of my lazyness... So I was used to hear jokes about my weight since I was little.

   And believe me: When a child hears something said by people she admires or wants to be like, she interiorizes it and starts to believe in them, doing everything just to fit in... She starts creating different strategies to deal with the reality: sometimes she makes fun of herself, in order to antecipate pain, because it's so much harder to hear it by outsiders; other times, she forces herself to believe that doesn't matter, because she will find someone who will love her just like she is; and at last, she accumulates a lot of anger and pain, untill she can't stand it much longer...

   And I grew up, always knowing the fact that I was fat, and there was no problem in that, really, 'cause I felt loved.

But the story goes on... (tomorrow)